it only reminds me

uhm i can't figure out what to blog-in but just this time that i realized that it's timely to post this one. wala lang. heard the song before and heard it a couple of times already but then ngayon ko lang na appreciate or shall i say ngayon ko lang narealize or sync in sa utak ko yung lyrics. hahayz buhay talaga o!

MYMP's rendition of the Richard Marxx Original, this is included pala in their latest album New Horizon. Being played now is a raw copy and not the one included in the said album.

missing

i had a hard time sleeping kagabi grabeh -- i just didn't expect that things would be not quite right for me. weird bakit kagabi lang and weird dahil sa song na "Where Is She"? kagabi ko pa iniisip anong connect dun sa kanya. err i was thinking bout her the whole night. weird tlga. sana nga magkatotoo ung text message na:

"those nights when you can't sleep, it might be because you're awake in someone else's dream."

though all i can say is dream on pao... libre lang ang mangarap. well it's just that it's what i feel now and more than anything else this is the most important. I don't know if i will feel the same tomorrow or in the next days but this is what i am feeling today. i miss that someone. i miss that inspiration. i miss the person whom i can converse to with everything that is happening to me. i miss the person whom i know can stood by me despite sa maling nagawa ko. i miss that person who believed in me. i miss that someone who made me want to stay awake until night falls and made me want to wake each new morning. damn i just miss that very person but then again i can't force her to feel the same way, i can't just let her heart beat as mine.

slow but moving

Hmmm i haven't slept last night, umaga na when i got the itch to sleep around 6:30am na after breakfast and to compensate i woke around 12nn. Though medjo maga ung mata and felt sore i had to stood up kase i got a text message na magrerelease ng grades by 2pm.

Last pala was the premiere of Pinoy Big Brother Celeb edition season 2. i do watch it tlga since season 1 uhm okey naman ung housemates now. well that's one reason why i stayed late last night and di na inantok. Natapos around 12 na ata yun, then i surf sa net lang and the last i checked the time it was already 4am di ko namalayan since i was reading some forums sa PEX.

Anyway i cooked dinner last night din pala, uhm experiment pero masarap. Nasarapan din naman ung mga kasama ko sa bahay actually naubos pa nga eh. It was a spicy pork dish di ko alam ano itatawag ko sa recipe na yun. well di koplinano yun eh wala experiment tlga it was a random selection of ingredients. hahaha I wasn hoping it was atleast edible and i'm glad it was both edible and satiable. haha.

well as i woke up kanina na parang high na high ang feeling --- light headedness that is eh wala lang nood ng tv onte hanggang nag 2pm saka pa nagprepare and alis na. Ay i started reading na pala ulit ung Tuesdays With Morrie. hehe. Matagal ako nakaalis ng house pero what took me sooo long din was traffic.

Rerouting was implemented kanina,it was kinda abrupt walang proper notice. It has caused confusion tlga and aberya to the public. The route was really change in the sense nah the route was reversed literally. We or I was the last person to get down and reach ung babaan ko when it was the other way around supposedly. Buti nalang ung music ng sinakyan ko really suited my own playlist,it somewhat made up the passed time and really made the travel a little light and short though it took some 45 minutes to an hour. haha.

All This Time (Tiffany)
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now (Starship)
If Love Was Blind
Sway (Bic Runga)

and i forgot na ung iba... basta ung ganung tipo and basta ang gulo ng trip. The driver nga and the barker doesn't even know where was the right route to take. What can you expect if mismo ung mga RTA officers gave different directions and instructions, grabeh biglang nagsulpotan ung mga naka green kanina and the jeepney kung saan saan na napadpad. What happened was parang naging door to door service ung PUJ hahaha kung saan may baba bah pupunta ung jeep. lol

ayun buti nalang pagdating ko sa school di pa nagsisimula ung pag release ng grades well mali pala tlga ung pagkaintindi ng mga students kala nila for all ung nakapost eh di pala sa isang section lang pala yun. todoinkz! kaya di kami kasali! lol. I just maximized my time kanina, i got na my ID... napraktis pa ako ng smile and nag ayos ng konte sa may salamin yun pala di na magpipicture ulit.yun pa din pala ung dati gagamitin. hahaha.

not long after that i was about to go home when a classmate texted na ung isang clinical instructor namin will release our grades for midterms kaya ayun i hurriedly went to the room where they were at and got my midterm lecture grade. hahayz pasang awa but i'm glad i still passed midterms. haha.

After nun nagbakasakali ako and well pinalad naman i got my clearance signed nah! whew! great atleast onte onte nababawasan ung mga dapat kung gawin. Sana lang tlaga i wouldn't have any problems with my grades. Will be getting my finals grade and hopefully pasado, though next week pa makukuha ung grade namin for the sem. hahayz. Well let's pray that the results will be good, prayer does work!

I went home nah after....yun lang naman nangyari sa araw ko ngayon. One thing i need to work on is my weight sabi nung clinical instructor ko i have to lose weight. hehe. let's pray for that but i guess imon my way. haha.

what's with the sickness?

what the! napansin ko lang na i get sick frequently nah talaga though sipon and cough lang naman, not that good pa din ung feeling. anyway i got to chit chat with Barry the other night and we were talking bout his life in the US and hell yeah! kaingit his earning already and me still in school. hehe.

anyway got a copy na of "Tuesdays With Morrie" yey! at last! gonna read it again soon. hahayz

grabeh ang init tlga ng panahon not that good na lumabas labas but i had to kc naggrocery eh and what was more stressfulyesterday was that we had to take a vice versa route kc had to attend a birthday party of some relative. uhm im not really quite familiar pero i know his the cousin of my lola, father's side.

It's kinda boring lang kc puro sobrang bata o di kaya naman matatanda ang andun sa party kaya wala hehe but the food was great! yay! busog na busog ako! The caterer they got was the caterer we had during the birthday of my lola sa mother side. tsalap tsalap ng food! woohoo! busog na busog tlga ako! what somehow passed the time was the videokaraoke! yup kumanta ako! ahaha 2 songs lang. okey naman well i sung 2 songs i usually sing pag nagvivideoke, uhm "All Apologies" by Nirvana and konteng part ng "Rainydays and Mondays by the Carpenters. hehe malat and may sipon kumanta pa din pasaway tlga!

ayun and now im still sick buti nalang nakakacough out ko na ung mga phlegm ko, got a sense of relief. hehe.Ay nga pala i dunno if napanood nyo nah, pero kakatuwa tlga new commercial ng Mcdonald's with Kris Aquino! hahaha Meal or No Meal. yaix! i couldn't imagine me in her shoes. lol ang kulit tlga ng commercial. hahaha.

hope ill be well na bukas!

finally

tagal ko na gusto mag blog in yet i can't seem to find a topic to write about. i am always stuck either sa homepage ng blogger or sa dashboard ba yun. hehe. finally i found a reason to blog-in, being wide awake in the wee hours ofthe night is one good reason to start with. haha

anyway i'm done with my requirements -- i guess and i hope tuloy tuloy na toh! i'm worried really i hope and pray talaga na i will be able to graduate this march. alam mo yung feeling na it has long been overdue. I'm free, free from school for now and free as in single. lol. btaw i was able to communicate with old pals from the school i precviously attended and it's quite great to be reconnected with them kahit sa text man lang. Well i've never been a text person naman tlga eh,unless to someone special pero sa common tao --- naks! ano yun! bagong term ah! haha, btaw i don't usually text and text ngayon lang that i find it practical or is it really practical na mag unlimited text? kaya forward ng message from time to time and i get to chitchat sa mga nagrereact at nagungumusta. anyhow i'm quite glad!

well my day went fine actually well productive, i was supposedly invited to an outing by my groupmates and some classmates but i prefered to stay at home nalang. wala lang i didn't have the urge -- urge? na pumunta and i didn't commit naman tlga eh.

i spent the day by cleaning, i help out sa room ng kapatid ko then some boxes from our househelp's room then sa room ko but unfortunately i'mnot totally done. some things are still scattered sa room ko but ayos lang atleast mas luminis ng bahagya. i just need more storage space pa! hehe.

grabeh i went sneezing the whole day! the other day pa naman nagsimula ung irritation eh but it got aggraviated by the dust during the clean up. Grabeh suppper ung sipon ko kanina. now got relieved because i took a dose of a medicine i found kanina while cleaning -- left over nung last time na nagkasakit ako.haha.

Oh god! i am having insomiac episodes na tlga! parang sunod sunod na ung pagtulog ko ng late, in fact yesterday i slept at almost 5am. grabeh di tlga ako makatulog and right now i got no signs of sedation from the dose i took!

technology really is the most convenient thing in the world, wala lang kc kahit i don't really hang out with the block people tlga i get to somehow spend time with them thru the cyber world, text and chat lang solve nah! Kahit ung iba they are having their in-house review nah i get the chance naman to chitchat with them and ung iba naman. saya pa din! hehe we got close more than ever na ngayon that we barely see each other na, weird but great. well hope to see them soon tlga.

finally, the sem is over... my room is kinda clean na again... i got reconneccted with some people and i got a blog entry for you dear reader(s)

uhm.

i dont know exactly what to write... its been like hours since i've been thinking what to write about all i know is i gotta have something to write.

after a few 30 minutes to an hour of surfing through PEX, i found something to write about.. naalala ko lang, i used to like Nina pala when foolish heart came out a few years back. Here's the lyrics of Jealous, one of her earlier songs:

well the song simply expresses one person's feelings regarding somebody he/she loves/likes having someone else around. Well the thought of the song is no brainer, everything is given in every lyric. It is a short and simple song actually.

it's already late and i am still up i don't know i just want to have an entry for today and i am good with this. haha. well i hope this is fairly good for today readers! nytienyt!

P/S: Saw this pala in one of those threads sa PEX... the thread was entitled: Ano Ang Kanta Mo?

the lead behind

this day isn't different from the other days these past months. err.ended up not so well like any of the other day. i'm tired but well what can i do,if no one would do things then it will bounce back to me. i mean everything will bounce back to me. hahayz.

it's tiring yet i can't do anything about it. its sad that no matter how hard we try
it just doesn't work. expectations just fail us and assumptions fail us either. well like any other child we just wish our own loads would just disappear and won't bother us for the rest of our time.

it's difficult to be a leader because the mere title of being one is a heavy liability. whether we like it or not, we got to do what we have to do. we need to do tasks which should be shared,and no matter how we complain or shrug with our shoulders, it doesn't make any difference.we got to take the step.

Sometimes it is rather disappointing but like any other martyr we tend to bend and continue.maybe what's wrong is that we tend to expect from our peers, we tend to envision our peers,the way we envision ourselves in their own shoes. we over looked that this individuals are unlike us.

bottomline.. though we expect much from others, we give too much just to give justice to a title of prime superiority but of rotten justifications.

i'm tired but then again this is my life for now. the lead behind.

my name.

Before, i really hate my name uhm not really hate hate but more of i dislike my name. It is common and i dunno it's just common and nah i hate the sound of it,it doesn't sound probably classy in my young mind. Now that I have grown years older i am fine with my name, i thought of it as somewhat cool and nice.. uhm kinda suave sounding or maybe i just got used to it and accepted it. haha.

According to my papa, my name they had gotten or he had gotten from a soccer superstar..hmmm well i hope he is 'coz havent heard of him. "Paolo Rossi".. does anybody know him? haha i wish someone knew him. haha well i researched for quite a bit and luckily found him. well good thing my papa was right, he was a soccer player playing for italy that time but i'm not that quite sure if he was a superstar of some sort. lolz. anyway i don't know much bout soccer except for the checkered, chess board rolled into a ball ...ball.hehe.

For all i know my complete full name is sooooooo common. haha. Another luckily part though is that it wasn't spelled as what it is commonly spelled. Jan with an A and Paolo with a double O. yay! or else i would be another John Paulo anywhere else in the world. haha.

The name Jan has no specific story, it was just that it sounded better with "paolo" daw and i guess the combo was becoming popular in the 80's that it has a ring to it or is there?

Now you might be wonderin that is if anyone will be able to wonder, why i came up with this blog entry. well i was checking my multiply account when i came across some updates in my network and one of which was a blog entry regarding the meaning of one's name interpreted by an online generator of some sort and so i tried it myself and here are the results of my own name.

jan
Enigmatic and mysterious you are a profound thinker and philosopher with great analytical ability and strong intuition. Perceptive and understanding you have a wonderful ability to read people. Your creative imagination and eloquence gives you a natural potential for writing and poetry. Very independent and individualistic you follow your own creed.

paolo
The little in "Latin"
Extremely intelligent in thought and deed you are gifted at communication and finding practical applications for your ideas. You are strong willed and ambitious and need to have passion, freedom and adventure in your life. Always willing to help others your warm, honest and loyal nature ensures that you are loved by all. It is likely that you will achieve a great deal of success and recognition in life.

jan paolo
Versatile, intelligent and artistically talented. You love to enjoy yourself and tend to experience a happy domestic life and material success. You have a methodical and thorough mind and are able to organise large projects easily. Charming and likeable and with more than your share of sex appeal you tend to find yourself in the spotlight and much admired by others. Life is more fun with you around.

well dear readers (if there are), i'll be humble this time ahem ahem... you do the judgement, that is if you know me personally...whether those analyses of my name were true or not. hahaha. anyway if you wish to find out the meaning of your own name or rather interpretation of yourself through your name you can log-on to:

http://www.bostonuk.com/name_meanings.php

thanks kuya doms for sharing kahit di mo alam that i posted it here or shall i say na kinalat ko pa! haha. :)

nah!

I don't know what to write now.. im sitting on top of my bed and it's really dark here in my room the only decent light is that from the lcd screen of my laptop which i am infront of now. hehe. All i can see are just silhouettes, oops! spellcheck?! well the scenery is gReat though.. its calming and soothing really. I'm on my nth yawn already but i don't wanna sleep just yet. Actually i was just surfing over google / yahoo for any MYMP articles and blah blah blah just to get by with the time. I'm bored na actually with the net, i had already done my routine checking of accounts lol and nothing interesting or new kaya surfing nalang. hehe.

nga pala here's the view i am talking about:



"hehe... too dark ano? ganyan talga yan!"

anyway i like it that way. Uhm MYMP's albumpala is already Platinum! yey! congrats! to those who havent gotten a copy yet, bili na kayo! its worth naman and please do get the original copy. hehe. Latest single is entitled "So Perfect"

sana i can put sample dito ano, well let's find a way kc naman eh i'm no computer geecko! harhar cge out na muna ko while'll try tofigure out pano. isip isip na muna.

kapagod!

Hala! october na pala.. never did i realized not up until now nah i was about to blog in.. bilis naman! hahayz so so busy this past few weeks... grabeh completing the requirements, case presentation 3 in a row wHat the! well because of some back logs we had to suffer a bit yet now medjo relax muna just finished kanina my very first practical exam... actually i failed in the practical part pero nabawi naman with the paper part kaso nga lang pasado as in pasado lang -- borderline lang pero its all good. It was my first actually to have a practical exam and i was kinda not in my right mind hehe btaw well what could we expect with our first times.

anyway had our culmination last wednesday for CHN and well had our overnight to do our task which was food! had egg sandwich but was that egg sandwich really?! err i hate to mock our work! but it wasn't the egg sandwich i was expecting... haha.. well 5 pipol 500 sandwiches in 2 hours! hahaha galing namin! haha

a not so good sleep + a not so good social interaction = a heat up temper! anyway it was our last day and it wasn't that good!

sometimes nakakapagod din mag isip and to mock things when others doesn't care that much kaya well hands off nalang. it gets into my nerves na tlga really but what can i do more bah?! sa lahat nalang ng bagay!

last saturday or friday we had our overnyt again just to finish our documentation for CHN and due morning... hahayz grabeh yun ah! had to start and finish everything overnyt with only 3 pipol or 4 pipol working out of 12. well thats life you just can't pull everyone from their own butts. goodthing we were able to get things done,late but nahabol din buti nalang. we actually had to go to our area just to pass our documentation. that meant spending almost 300 pesos for fare pero syempre taxi na yun, dumaan sa lubak lubak na daanan, and walking for a few 100 meters para sunduin ang taxi na dapat naghihintay sa amin. err kainis ung taxi driver ah!

well the semester is almost done. sana tlga ill pass and get over and move on to the next level. help me pray. prayer works! trust me!

ahh nga pala made my very first directorial job! actually it was on the spot or shall i say impromptu! wee! i am happy with the outcome though it's not that great but i do think it was a good start! hehe i love my own.. who cares?! hehe

check out nalang the link: http://pawap.multiply.com/video/item/5/A6_skit

wala lang... im happy with it... generally i can say i am ayt i guess i hope. :)