the lead behind

this day isn't different from the other days these past months. err.ended up not so well like any of the other day. i'm tired but well what can i do,if no one would do things then it will bounce back to me. i mean everything will bounce back to me. hahayz.

it's tiring yet i can't do anything about it. its sad that no matter how hard we try
it just doesn't work. expectations just fail us and assumptions fail us either. well like any other child we just wish our own loads would just disappear and won't bother us for the rest of our time.

it's difficult to be a leader because the mere title of being one is a heavy liability. whether we like it or not, we got to do what we have to do. we need to do tasks which should be shared,and no matter how we complain or shrug with our shoulders, it doesn't make any difference.we got to take the step.

Sometimes it is rather disappointing but like any other martyr we tend to bend and continue.maybe what's wrong is that we tend to expect from our peers, we tend to envision our peers,the way we envision ourselves in their own shoes. we over looked that this individuals are unlike us.

bottomline.. though we expect much from others, we give too much just to give justice to a title of prime superiority but of rotten justifications.

i'm tired but then again this is my life for now. the lead behind.