hectic that is!

whew! it has been a really really tough journey for me, err the thought of graduation day is just so stressful for me to handle. Well I want to graduate, who doesn't? the prob is there so much, so many things needed to be done before graduation and i'm on the process of doing everything i can just to G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E.

i don't want to expect much but i am hopin' and prayin', as i've said who doesn't want it? anyway the weeks that was quite a chuga chuga train with a twist actually more than a twist, much like a speedy bullet everything seemed so fat yet slow...hmmm if you know what i mean -- i didn't even my felt my birthday was coming nor i felt it ended. haha

complying all those stuffs was pretty darn E-FFORT-TY. yep! so much of an effort. anyway i just did whatever i can possibly do and luckily i'm half way through it but one ice berg coming up. One problem at a time comes and seemed to come and go.

Well I've completed my cases, all signed up and honestly i felt i will be graduating soon after joining a mission at a nearby some 1 1/2 hours bus ride.. just to get minor cases, going back and forth to bukidnon for my DR cases to be signed up, waiting, begging, and making myself just to be able to insert and get my last delivery assist case. well it has been good, God has been so so great. He has given us or M.E. all the miracles just to get everything done in time. I mean so much blessings I tell you.

In the middle of complying everything, my birthday was coming and i didn't felt it coming. it never occurred to me not until reaching home the night before my birthday! "hala! birthday ko na pala bukas" i thought while walking towards our house and that was the only time that i realized that it was my birthday the next day. haha funny and a bit sad. anyway it was all good some friends greeted me naman and the blessings i had was more enough to say that i had a Happy Birthday! bonus part was talking to someone over at YM after sometime of not keeping in touch -- on my birthday :)

the next day may humabol pang mga greetings! hehe. well for the celebration i had dinner with my family lang and happy naman i chose the place and well it wasn't new kc dun kami kadalasan kumakain when were out but then i liked it there naman. What was great pa nung time na yun was that gusto ko ung mga songs na tinugtog nung one man band on stage. hehe. so happy din :)

then i had my practical exam last friday, uhm we had community procedures and i was hoping talaga that I'll be demonstrating Urinalysis and Home Made Salt and Sugar Solution, praying that i will be spared of other procedures like Post Partum and Antepartal Exercises which I really didn't know how to go about. I was there waiting for my turn, kinakabahan ako sobra but i some how didn't really dwell on it, i just chit chatted and scanned my photocopies until i was called --- and then i was trembling!

I went inside, trying not to be consumed by the shaky-ness i felt inside, i just smiled and just went on the process. After taking a short written exam on IMCI Assessment, I draw two pieces of rolled up paper wherein there lies my fate -- the two procedures I'll be performing. Uh Oh! I said to myself as I opened and read the two papers as it said P.O.S.T.P.A.R.T.U.M. E.X.E.R.C.I.S.E.... i just didn't know how to go about it and i started recalling the steps as what i scanned earlier. Since I got two of those pala, i got to draw another paper and I got Medical Handwashing which was a sense of relief,it was one of the simplest procedures in the batch. Well the trouble didn't stop there, as i was assigned to one clinical instructor with not that good endorsement. hehe. According to others, she was one hell of an instructor... strict, and some negative reviews in short -- double Uh Oh!

and so i entered the room and approach her kindly with a smile painted on my face -- like a pup with the tail kept. My first procedure and probably my death was post mortem este partum exercise... i haven't actually applied it in the clinical setting and neither did i had a previous return demonstration on this. I struggled really recalling what was on the paper, my "terror" clinical instructor was smiling and laughing patiently. She helped me whenever i grasp for words from that short white paper but towards the end i didn't had much to say anymore, nothing entered my mind and so she just asked me some questions and I was done with my first procedure. The next procedure i did it in a swift not noticing that i had some mistakes. haha. It was a totally great experience, i was mislead by some endorsement from peers and realized that how people deals with you depends on how you deal with them. She might be strict to some but it doesn't follow that she would be strict to me. hehe.

well not exactly what i asked from God but then he guided me through it and ended me victorious :) still the same outcome i had a good grade but i learned a lot more than what i may learn if what i exactly asked was granted.

Anyway, today i am really struggling for graduation still, i'm having trouble with my Guided Review grades. uhm please do pray for me. it works. :)