can we just talk?

it is cold today and still my fan is on 3, inches away from me. it is jampacked raining outside and gloomy -- too dark for 4:30pm. i love days like this when you can cuddle yourself and beam on things to the tune of songs easy on the ears. Well it's "How Deep is Your Love" by the bird and the bee, which is part of the upcoming Sex and The City movie.

In the hopes of keeping my afternoon busy, i stumbled into a thread in which i used to post in, "i hope mabasa niya to" thread which made me think of things. Ironic may it be but how can we have so much thoughts to share or thinks to tell someone when we don't have the chance to. When we are all free and the moment draws us to speak all we want, we cannot even utter a word or two. We are able to clearly see things and finish a whole paragraph when it is no longer needed. Why can't we just talk then and there without any hesitations? Why can't we talk upfront? Why can't we not regret? Why can't we not say that i'm all done, hands off without feeling remorse? or maybe a simple mind reading ability could have made everything easy and fast.

Well, that's how the world goes and for what ever left unsaid for now may never be spoken and will remain unsaid for as long as forever. Maybe we are just given one opportunity in a lifetime and when we pass by that, there wouldn't be any downright second chances. Maybe what matters in this world, is having the gutts for the first and last time. Maybe this world is for those stronger souls who are ready to risk anything, who are never afraid to speak out, for those greater soul who never feared or maybe not.

I just hope that one day i'll find myself fighting for what I really want, I hope I can be one greater soul somehow someday.