something better

I had my very first formal job interview last monday and i tell you it was quite an experience. I've never experienced such nervousness as that in my entire life. Well the whole thing came in a short notice. I was informed by my aunt friday night about that and yeah 2 days after was the actual interview. Oh yeah I didn't have an idea of what really would take place since i've never been to an event as such. Complete with the attire, resume, cover letter and some stuffs that might be asked from me i headed to the supposed to be hotel 30 minutes before the set time and yeah took the jeepney and motorella, two of the main mode of transpo here in CdO. hehe. Hey! Hey! It's nothing, I really didn't care much of some heads taking a second glance at me. ahahaha.

Then there I was, entering the premises as my heart started to stump stump stump while mind figures out what to do later on. I approached the reception and tried to ask for the exact location of the event, unfortunately it was another company who was scheduled but then i just opted to see for myself the supposed to be hall. As I took the steps on the stairs, my heart beats a little faster... my sympathetic nervous system seemed responding well to the upscaling stress I am undergoing. I've never been there and so I used the stairs, if you don't know i have a thing in unfamiliar places it's either I'd use the stairs or if in an open area i'd rather walk than ride in a transpo that would directly send me to the location i am heading for. Anyway as I reached the location that the receptionist told me, there was no one there and so i texted my aunt bout it and guess what? the event was relocated to another hotel, goodthing it was nearby and so i grab a cab and off i went, sweaty quite worried of being late.

Now,I was at the right hotel and yeah my feeling didn't get any better - it was even worse... i felt my knees shaking and butterflies in my stomach? talk about impending diarrhea good thing it was alleviated when I had a pee and tried to look myself on the mirror. hehe. narcisistic? probably! ahaha. I thought Iwas up for an interview but no i wasn't since we had two take two tests and pass everything before proceeding to an interview with the bosses. It was a bit of relief knowing about that but it somehow trippled my worries of not making the cut. I had to complete a 12 minute-50 item exam with atleast 15 correct answers, an online personality exam wherein the head office decides whether you are on for the intervie or not and lastly the interview.

I passed first round with a total correct of 24 answers and yeah i wasn't able to cover all 50 items. We were told to take the online exam and so together with 3 new friends who were also applicants we went to Dvsoria to lookfor an internet cafe and yeah we did the personality test -- I am just so amazed by how the test was so accurate when i looked at my own results and yeah it said that it suited the position i was applying for. We were done around 10am and so I went to the cathedral to pray not just for my application that i may be able to proceed to the interview but also for my upcoming board exam. I was really furious whether or not I'll be interviewed, i didn't received any text messages and yeah afternoon was starting to set in. I decided to join the reinforcement lecture in the afternoon but i was so agitated, checking out my cellphone for any updates on my application but no text. I was silently listening to the lecture, bothered and hoping that I get to be interviewed. Alas! I got the text message and yeah i flew in like a flash to the hotel -- don't get me wrong! i informed my review coordinator about it.

I was interviewed. Question after question i got a bit relieved from the anxiety but yeah my voice got a little bit louder. I know it was didn't turn out exactly how i practiced everything in my mind but it surely was my best shot. After the interview, honestly i really prayed but not as how i prayed that morning. I just wished that what ever the outcome would be, it is what is best for me. I wanted the job because I want security -- I am actually afraid of what my future would be and how would that job could greatly ease the burden but then again i know it might not be the best for me, it might be the best for the moment but not for the following days and that's what I was praying for. I prayed that whatever God think is the best for me then let it be, If I would be in I'd be very much happy but if I don't I'd gladly accept it and move on. I didn't received any call or SMS from them the following day which meant I wasn't able to make it but you know what I'm just so thankful right now for that whole experience and yeah I learned a lot from it.

To be honest it was one hell of an experience but as i look back it was something that I never thought I couldn't survive but as i've known myself i know It wasn't strange that I came out fine. One advice, If you are there -- in what ever you do or what ever is set for you to do -- do it! give a shot. You have to face things where you are ready or not -- it's better to do something than to turn your back at it. Life is about fighting every opporutnity given to you and so by then you'll appreciate things, you'll appreciate yourself. The beauty of life is the fact that whether you got what you want or not, you'll end u with a price -- it might not be good to you right now but sooner or later you'll realize it was so much better.